Communication

I'm afraid that eventually I will lose my ability to communicate to people. This fear originated in the Philippines where after six months, I felt like I was losing my English faster then I was gaining my Tagalog, which left me feeling inept at both languages. It's somewhat of a frustrating feeling. An interesting thing I experienced in the Philippines was I noticed that I hear the gist of what people say, but I don't seem to actually listen to all the words on occassion. I usually can't repeat the exact words of what someone said, but I know exactly what was communicated. It's this worrisome trait that has me wondering yet again if I will lose my ability to communicate. Lately, I've been hearing people talk and I know what they mean, but the precise words are muddled in my head. I think it might be a lack of concentration combined with this weird ability to just soak in communication but not really hear it. It's hard to explain, mainly because I don't know how to communicate any more. I listen like I read. I read a book, and I comprehend it, but I don't read it in such detail that words and phrases really fget stuck in my mind. But I have the same comprehension level of what I read as any one else that reads. It's a peculiar habit I have, much like how I can never take a multiple choice test by starting on the first question. Instead, I have to start at the back as this is somehow less daunting. I typically read magazines like Time back to front as well. Back to the main point, I'm worried that eventually, I won't be able to comprehend what people say to me because I haven't heard words in so long that my ability to soak up complete comprehension will be finished. Thus begins my weird recommitment I must make with myself about once every two years to try and really concentrate on every word in conversation and reading so that I won't lose my ability to communicate.
For those who know me, this comes out in my speech to. I don't finish sentences, leaving the listener to fill in and lately my pronouns have been all screwed up. Sometimes I'll finish talking and it's as if I can see the words I just said and they're in a jumble and the listener has to sort them and switch them around to make a complete sentance. I guess I should commit to talking well as well. (Also, I've been relatively slow-witted of late, like my brain is stuck in first)